For a long time after my trauma I felt…. different. I didn’t feel comfortable or safe in my body. I didn’t even feel comfortable or safe in my mind. Suddenly, there were thoughts, emotions and memories that seemed out of my control. In order to deal with it all, I did my best to suppress the problems and carry on with a ‘normal’ life.
I bet you can already guess that I wasn’t exactly successful. The more we avoid post-traumatic issues the more they fester and eventually erupt. On the days that I just couldn’t hold myself together – when I melted down, lashed out or shutdown in order to lessen the stress – I thought the problem, certainly, was me. I was too weak to manage. The truth, I found out later, is the problem was not me at all. The problem is that trauma impacts and changes the brain in significant ways that impair our ability to function.
Recovering from Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) is challenging. Unlike bronchitis, there is no universal treatment, no definitive timeframe for feeling better, and no way to know what kind of treatment will work. While you try different healing modalities from traditional (talk therapy, cognitive behavior therapy and exposure therapy) to alternative (information processing therapies, hypnosis, Neuro-Linguistic Programming, somatic experiencing) it will be necessary for you to also develop your self-empowered healing skills.
You have enormous healing potential; the goal is learning to access it. Applying your own internal strength to the recovery process means developing not only your recovery skills but also your consciousness. Here’s why….
Have you survived a trauma and are still haunted by the after effects? Do you struggle with a bad case of insomnia? Ever feel like you’re literally caught in an instant replay of the moment you felt most helpless while your life was being threatened? Have you noticed that instead of experiencing emotions you are emotionally numb? If you answer, ‘yes,’ to these questions, you’re not alone! In fact, studies estimate that over 5% of the American population (that’s over 15mm people) struggle with symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD). While posttraumatic stress symptoms are prevalent, many people don’t recognize the presence of them in their own lives. We get so used to being awake all night, having nightmares or suppressing disturbing memories that all of that seems normal. The truth is, though, you don’t have to live that way.
I don’t know who you are, or why you are reading this page. I only know that for the moment, we have connected for a reason, and that is good. Because I want you to know someone cares about you. I can assume that you are here because you are troubled and considering ending your life as I have thought about doing on many occasion throughout my life. If it were possible, I would prefer to be there with you at this moment, to sit with you and talk, face to face and heart to heart. Look you in the eyes so that you could know that I have felt the pain you feel.